So. Thoughts. Yes.

Have been thinking about depression and sleep. I really think that depression is correlated with sleep. In this case it would also have to be correlated with mania. So! what is the link?

I philosophize that both situations occur with lack of enough sleep. People with depression are always tired. This is simply because they cannot get enough sleep. Sleep is important because it gives you time to understand everything and organize your brain around new information present. This is an issue in depression where people get really sleepy and are lost in their brains analyzing things and being pensive. Depression is prone to people without enough sleep who are very mental in nature or complex psychologically. These people have way more to process when they go to sleep so their chances of not getting it done are higher.

Now mania is a different beast. For mania, one can't sleep. Sleep there is is light so you cant get into the deep processing modes. I think that it's when you can't access a threshold of sleep you really start to get delusional. When you can't get down to a specific level of processing.You become very disconnected with your chi body.

Separate sleep philosophy. Your chi body leaves at night, but it takes a certain level of sleep for it to really leave. it comes back as your mind start waking up, mechanically per se. Maybe when someone is going manic they are always connected with the chi body and that body doesn't get a chance to leave. Sophia is very "connected with her body". People with depression are very not into their bodies. This is because the body is trying to leave for the sleeping processing. Manic people would just stop making stuff to have to process. They can't process anything right!

The question is- why are manic people high energy while the depression people are low energy? depression people are crippled by lack of sleep in a sad and self-deprecating way. Manic people are crippled by lack of sleep in a over-excited, self-inflationary, delusional way. People who are very analytical become depressive. People who are clever become manic. I really don't know. I guess both are delusional. Also, both are caused by lack of sleep........And obviously the way people think about things will affect the falling into one or the other.

The Transparent Lining

So some things are stating to make sense now. Not to say that the number of questions is decreasing. It's like the more I figure out, the more questions pop up as a result. It's enjoyable, but I've had to learn to love the uncertainty and recognize I can't really talk about it with people. Too many questions.

My work with enhanced qigong systems (EQS) has led me to experience so much in such a small time. I've decided to put the EQS on hold now while I re-calibrate. If I'm lucky I can maintain this level, but with my environment I'd be happy to just get all my stuff done at work. I have a whole lifetime for this, though.

I've noticed that being psychic really isn't very far off from where I am now. Right now I can a) feel the chi in my body b) discern some of the kinds of chi c) move around the chi d) control the ground chi and the air chi e) use the wei chi to some extent to shield myself f) feel the chi of a room or area g) feel the chi body of a person, though I haven't really practiced. I'd like to.

I found out that medicine men in the rainforest can feel these things too. They are so good at it that they can feel the specific chi body of a plant (maybe more than just chi) and tell what it would be good for medicinally. These things weren't done trail and error style.

My desire to smoke and drink has gone down. Only a little bit, though. My desire to eat healthy has risen. Most importantly, I feel a bit more relaxed. Less timid for sure. I'm starting to test the limits of what I can get away with with people. Results have been good. I really can be more assertive. My brain is a tool, not my identity.

My view on what is individuality is also changing. So many college quasi-hipster types like myself were so dull to talk to unless inebriated but wore these clothes that made them seem cool and interesting. It's like if they dressed a certain way they were happy with their individuality and it proved at some level, yeah, they were cool. The problem was actually getting to that level with them at some party where you can only talk to people for 5 minutes or shit isn't cool anymore. Now I'm finding that clothes don't matter unless your in some circle that does. What matters is the ability to have a vision, follow a plan, be kind, creative, sensible, keep emotions in check, and always stay optimistic. Any deviation can be a downward spiral, but the longer you keep it up, the easier it is to maintain it and to return to it when you deviate.

I find the deviation is composed usually of environmental factors. Things out of your control.

Another thing I've been thinking about is the way our society has been set up. Our society has been set up to service the physical body only where as the older, natural ways of living feed the chi body also (and other bodies?) more so. Lets take medicine. Modern medicine is all about finding a mechanical or chemical way to fix a problem that occurs in the physical body. Like cancer: they go in and cut it out. That really doesn't do much for the problem which probably originated in the chi body. They are treating the symptoms. Not to say all problems originate in the chi (or deeper?) bodies. Take sunburns for example. But I digress. I think homeopathic medicine is not understood by western science because it works on the chi body (maybe other bodies too?)

This brings me to a few questions which are testable. 1) Does the placebo effect, commonly regarded as the sole reason for the success of homeopathic medicine, vary between individuals in a scalable fashion? 2) Do different propensities of the placebo effect correlate with the effectiveness of homeopathic drugs? 3) Do methods or exercises exist which can increase the propensity for the placebo effect? What about yoga or esp. qigong?

I feel if these mystical traditions do increase the ability to use the placebo effect, then the doors are open for developing a new understanding of what the placebo effect is, which I feel should correlate with the chi body. The kicker is that if qigong is effective at doing healing and its proven, everyone will want to do it and hopefully the world can start to go from modernism to a spiritual post-modernism where people are happy and things work nicely.

at some point chi will have to be measured. I hate to say it but I think it can be stored in crystals. I don't know what kind or anything. I'd like to try charging a crystal and putting it in soil and growing a plant on top in comparison with a control planted by another person with a similar uncharged crystal. Jeez this sounds hokey! But this may be a primal method of quantifying chi. It will ultimately have to be quantified with some sort of living thing. Probably a plant. I wonder if bacteria have chi bodies.

I wonder if life on earth evolved to have more and more bodies with the initial life having only physical bodies or if everything has every body. Maybe I will know one day.